Give it Away

I was driving home the other night. It had been a long, emotional, tiring day. These days are rare for me. I am very good (probably too good for my own good) at bottling everything up inside. I think I could probably win an Oscar for hiding what I am truly feeling from people at times. Trust me, this is not something I am proud of.
I had a good 45 minute drive home so I had plenty of time to just pray and think about life. A time to be real and open. I was pretty overwhelmed with so many different emotions that I just needed a release.
And as I was praying, all of a sudden a song popped into my head. Not just any song. This was a song that I haven't heard since Jr. High. A song that was released in 1992. It was a song that was good and comforting for me to hear.
So I plugged in the ipod and listened to Michael W Smiths song "Give it Away"
Throughout the song it tells the story of people who say they love but it cant truly be love until you are willing to give it away. To show them with action.
I immediately felt convicted and was reminded of how selfish I have been lately. How I say I love (and do) but am too scared or selfish to actually show it. I think this selfishness is something that could possibly and unfortunately made me lose some great things in life. There was nothing I was willing to do to sacrifice. Isn't that what love is? Sacrifice?

This has been a lesson well learned and it something that I believe is changing who I am as a person. I'm tired of living the fearful, timid, secure, easy, convenient, selfish life and I truly want to LOVE people with action. I want to sacrifice. I want to give it away.
Jesus was the ultimate example of what love could truly be. Love was His life and He gave it away.
In what ever way I can, I want to sacrifice for the good of others. I want to gain back the things that were possibly lost. I want to change.
I know this blog is just "words" but I am ready to take action.

Thanks God for this awesome reminder.